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if it’s him you love,
leave me before it’s my heart you break
cause I’ve been thru this before,
and it’s something I just can’t take

if it’s me you love,
baby, tell me to my face
cause honesty is all I need
to set my life ablaze.

everything I ever wanted or felt I should be.
I’m happy even tho my past as it’s dark corners.
I’m smiling even tho I’m unsure about my future.
I live a free life like each day could be my last.
I am exactly who I want to be.
Some people may see me as weak,
but I’ve been thru more than you’ll ever imagine
and made it to the top.
I survived.
I’m self taught in everything I know.
I listen.
I got myself up and going every morning
when most had given up on me.
I’m stronger for it. I’m a fighter.
I let music inspire my every fiber.
I let the words move me.
I let the acoustic guitar lul me to sleep.
I let the bass pound in my heart.
And i let my emotions fly high. No shame.
I’m a dreamer and I have big dreams.
I’m alive so I plan to live out my dreams.
The ocean is my paradise.
The city lights are my perfection.
Every sound has a meaning to me.
No, I’m not high. I’m honest.
I am a believer in the good of what I can be.
I know I will be something.
I know I’ll make an impact on at least one person.
Hundreds have made an impact on me.
My friends have been there when I need them most.
I love them.
And 2013, I’m ready for you.
It will be an explosive year
and I have all of the plans ready in my head.
I am finally moving on from the shadows holding me down.
I am finally being me.
For me.
No one else but me.
And It Feels Amazing.
I am me. come and get me 2013. :) 

Everything I’ve been through, I grew from. I know who I am and it took a lot to get to this point. There are points I felt lost and scared. Honestly I still feel a little lost sometimes and without fear I wouldn’t be human. But I lose my fear when I see my friends and the joy that comes with being with them. I’ve come to know a lot of people and not all of them were good people. I grew from every relationship and friendship that has come and gone. I’m strong and weak in a way due to these relationships. I felt the beauty of true love and I felt the sting of true heartbreak. There are times I wish I could go back to certain things and change them but then I know I wouldn’t be at this place of understanding and confusion. I’ll find love again. When? No idea. But, I will. For all I know I could already know who he is. Only time can tell. Until then, music will be my expression of love.

Music has kept me alive. Listening to it takes me to a far off dream world. It helps me write my own. I may not be the best writer but my writing always hits home. Everything I write is a memory or thought in my mind. I find beauty in the darkness of my life. That’s what keeps me going. That’s what makes me smile. 

Yeah, so well thats my little rant thingy. :)

Neville Longbottom and The Crescent Scar is finally truly beginning. I’m excited looking at all my notes. I wish the first book was done already so I could share it with all of you.